“Isn’t it an awkward moment when you’re meeting with your ex?”
I posed the question to the folks in front of me. The ladies of course said that it should be perfectly alright, unless you still have lingering feelings for the other person.
That got me thinking. When you break up with someone, over time, do feelings really fade away like paint peeling away in the face of the elements? Or does it stick stubbornly through thick and thin cutting across time like an eternal monument to a storied past?
The ladies also said that it should be okay to say “how have you been?” or “how’s life treating you”. I do not know if I can be as nonchalant as that. How the hell can I casually say that to an ex’s face? That same face that at one time I looked lovingly at and in all sincerity promised the sun, the moon, and the stars. I can’t be too sure if I would not remember the tenderness we shared. Nor would I forget that I also broke her heart.
I don’t know how I would be able to pull it off if I ever get into a situation like that. I’d just probably mumble something and find a stupid excuse to run away like returning some dvd’s to video city or something.
This must be psychosis or something, this morbid fear of meeting and talking to former lovers. Or maybe I just do not want to remember past hurts or waste time dwelling on the ‘what could have beens’. I don’t know. Perhaps time would take care of this thing. Or perhaps not. I don’t know. I don’t have all the answers.
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actually, i don’t find i weird talking to my ex. maybe because we have been good friends before we became lovers. or maybe because i don’t give a damn what the heck’s been happening to him. just sheer friendliness. no strings attached. :p
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